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Wednesday, November 15th, 2006
9:24 am	FCUK havent been on this website in AGESSSSSSSS... ok, well let's see wat i've been upto.... hmm... okay... i've been going to gym everysignle day for like the past 2 and a hlaf months or so, and of course, it's a gym, so there'es gonna be quite a few fairy's right? well... i was hit on by this cute guy (he was a lil too old thoguh, 28) so i went for coffee with him and he got my number and watever, and then the next day omg i didnt believe it. i got picked up by a cop, he was sexy and had a super cute personality, he drove me home in his HOT WRX and told me i had a nice ass hehehe. and omg can sumbody help me out here? fcuk! there is sum absolutely OLD DISGUSTING SEX-CRAZED monkey chasing after me. he's old enough to be my dad, he's fat and gross, and he looks at my body and licks his lips and whistles at me. i mean... wat the hell is that about? does he really think he stands a chance in hell with me? please hunny. i have standards.well... there's this guy that works at the gym who i have had a crush on for like AGES now, so i'm gonna try to talk to him today to report the old bastard and hopefully they can tell him off or cancel his membership, coz that bullshit just ISN'T toelerated! OH MY GOD! and the biggest news ever... i told my brother i was gay 2 days ago. i'm super impressed with how he reacted, he's totally fine with it, just maye i shou;dnt have told him im not avirgin... he didnt believe that lol. anywayz im outties... ARIVERDERCI my fellow homo's MWA MWA Current Mood: i think im crazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 21st, 2006
6:19 pm	FERGIE'S FUCKEN AWESOME!!! OMG Fergie's album is da shit man! it's totally unexpexted and totally works for me. i never really knew how emotional she was. you's just assume she's some tough promiscuous bitch, but really she's so sweet. the poor bitch sufered enough in her life, i mean, she had a bad break up so she went anorexic, she got addicted to crystal meth and became paranoid. wat more could u be suffering with? and now after cleanig herself up, she's become a very successful solo female artist. now do u all understand y i idolise her so much?the majority of the racks are slow and very emotional, i almost cried listening to 'FINALLY' and i love the track 'BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY', i absolutely love the chorus in it. beautiful! oh and as CHEESY as it sounds the song 'FERGALICIOUS' is super funky and H-O-T. ok, i'm gonna stop bragging, but i strongly recommend everybody grab a copy, lots of love always DEaN XoxOxOXO Current Mood: AWESOME! (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 2nd, 2006
8:06 pm	PARIS OMG OK... have any of u guys bought the Paris Hilton album yet? FAN-FUCKEN-TASTIC! it's absolutely great, i love it, i give it about 4 out of 5 stars. my fave tracks are 'TURN IT UP' (becoz i dance like a dirty slut to it), 'I WANT YOU' (becoz it features the GREASE theme music in the background which worked great) 'JEALOUSY' (becoz it's so bitchy towards Nicole Richie, gotta LOVE IT!) 'NOTHING IN THIS WORLD' (becoz it's a fun and breezy song) 'NOT LEAVING WITHOUT YOU' (love the chorus.... so much fun "WE CAN DANCE WE CAN DANCE WE CAN DANCE WE CAN DANCE 2NIGHT, COME ON JUST MOVE UR BODY...") and i did always love 'DO YOU THINK IM SEXY' by Rod Stewart, so that's y i like Paris Hilton's version. Overall i strongly recommend everybody buy this album, listen to it, have a few drinks, and have the utmost fun dancing to almost every track, it's great. i am very impressed taht she put togetehr such a successful album. OH! and the DVD is great, the second disc... it's fun. god i hope i get to meet her one day to congratulate her on her fantastic success. EVERYBODY, BUY THE FRICKIN ALBUM! I CANNOT STRESS IT ENOUGH, ITIS ABSOLUTELY WORTH EVERY CENT. P.S. EVRYBODY!!! I;VE QUIT SMOKING, I HAVENT HAD ONE FOR 2 WEEKS AND I HAVE ALSO GIVEN UP COFFEE, BOTH FOR THE SIMPLE REASON THAT THEY STAIN UR TEETH, AND SMOKING MAKES U AGE (not good not good.) so therefore i've quit, and i have gone to gym evryday for the past 2 weeks, it;s all become a part of my everyday living now, and i've become very health conscious. HAVE A GREAT NIGHT GUYS MWA MWA LOTS OF LOVE ALWAYS, dEaN xoXOxOxO Current Mood: bouncy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 15th, 2006
6:17 pm	wat a shit day... geez! talk about a wrecker!... ok so it was an absolutely gorgeous day today, i wanted to go down to Bondi Beach to take some Photographs, so as i made this decision, i get a call from my friend George, and he says "do u wanna do sumthing" and i sed "yeah sure, wat time?" bla bla bla and time goes on, i pick him up and then he says "i can't be out any longer than an hour, i've got TAFE" so i hung out with him for a bit, and then as i drop him off, i'm about to go on my wonderous journey to Bondi Beach, and then as i get there... WHAT THE FUCK! shit weather overules the sky, and it wasn't exactly what i wanted for Bondi, it would have been perfect for my City Series, but not for the beautiful beach. so i head home with my head down in shame...(not literally otherwise i would have had a serious car crash lol)so yeah... that was my fantastic day, geez... i need sex lol i'm gonna go now and meditate to find inner peace... have a great night guys, lots of love always DeAn xOxOxoXo P.S. My seven deadly sins project is complete, i hope i get into the gallery... wish me lots of luck, i'm handing it in, in ten days. CiAo Current Mood: why??????????????????????????? (Comment on this)
Friday, August 11th, 2006
7:30 pm	HAPPY BIRTHAY!!! hey ANNALISA, even though u don't know me that well, and i don't know u, i know it's ur birthday, so i'm just saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNALISA, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HIPHIP HOORAY, HIPHIP HOORAY YAYYYYYYYYYYYY!" lol, ok, i'm kinda creeping myself out, so i'm gonna go... ARIVERDERCI lovely peoples. Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 10th, 2006
5:21 pm	NELLY FURTADO!!! OMG so today i met Nelly Furtado at the seven store at Martin Place... gorgeous, she's absolutely beautful, and she was such a lovely person to each individual fan. god! i never liked ehr so much,... but now... i love her. it was great. so i got her autograph and a foto yipeeeeeeeeeeee. anyhow i'm otties... ARIVERDERCI my fellow feathered friends. xOxOxoXO Current Mood: yay (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 30th, 2006
5:51 pm	wow... wat a mad day! yesterday i had so much fun, i went to my dads resteraunt with my brother, andrei, george, peter, mez and malak, we ate a shit load of food, enjoyed intriguing conversations and had a blast. i didnt think i could have that much fun without alcohol. speaking of alcohol, later that night i went to jeff and nicholettes to celbrate my b'day again and made martini's and cocktails and stuff, nicho had to have made the sweetest friggin drink in history, it was pretty much all liquid strawberries and sugar lol, she called it a maguirita haha, so i slept over had fun again and today i went to cronulla to drop off nicholettes friend and now i'm headng off to bankstown to run an erond for my evil sister lol. anyway i'm outties b4 she starts yelling, holla homies. XOxoXOxoX LoVe aLWaYS dEAn. MWAAAAAA Current Mood: bouncy (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 29th, 2006
1:49 pm	wat fun... yay, this birthday has been alot more fun than i had expected, on my b'day last thursday, i got my P's woot woot, and so did my brother it was awesome, we went joy riding for a lil while, i went cruising down Newtown, Oxford St., over the Harbour Bridge, Bondi, all on that thursday with Jeff and Nicholette, it was so much fun. i got alot of unexpected presents, jeff got me Kylie Minogue tockets, i'm so excited, we r going to get a limo there, get trashed have a great night, and then get a limo back from the concert, and Nicholette got me the new B.E.P. album, the remix's "THE RENEGOTIATIONS" (really funky) and alot of prezzy's from family and stuff.2night me my brother and friends, r going to my dads resteraunt to have a great dinner and then i'll be driving ms. Malak around Sydney woot woot, i love drving her, she's so much funto be with. and then after all that i'm gonna visit my fave lil cuzin in the whole world, and then i'm going to jeff and nicho's place for cocktails YEEHAWWWW lol it's oh so very exciting. anyway, i hope all of u who read this havea great day coz i know i will, mwa mwa lots of love always DeAn xOXoxOxoXO P.S. i've decided what i'm going to do for an occupation (well a dream lol), i'm not gonna say it but i'll drop one hint... look closely in magazines.... i think u get the drift, MWA MWA MWA CiAO Current Mood: yeeeehawwww (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 26th, 2006
7:17 pm	i can't wait! yay 2morrow it's my birthday and i'm going for my P's, oh god i hope i get them, it's my ticket to freedom. can i get a woot woot!. my driving instructor told me today my driving was perfect, not one problem, he said i most definately will get them first go. anyhow i shouldnt be on here, i've got plenty of homweork to do, take it ez guys mwa mwa love always DeAN! P.S. i fucken love this new song from JoJo, she's so talented for such a young girl lol. LISTEN TO IT!!! hehe and by the way... i'm going through a slow song fase lol. and i love dat song by THE CRANBERRIES - LINGER... genius lol mwa mwa PeAcE OUt HoEs! (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 23rd, 2006
10:06 am	ok Jackson, i'm confused... The song that u were bragging about... ALL THIS LOVE by THE SIMILOU is really weird. i like the music in the background, it sounds very 80's retro funk, but the only problem is when it get's to the chorus, that singer has a quite distructive voice. is it a boy or girl? i;m confused. BUT i will recommend a song that u would love, maybe not for the band but for it's sound its "The Fast and the Furious 3 - Tokyo Drift SOUNDTRACK - N.E.R.D - ROCKSTAR" it's a totally awesome remix, download it! P.S. i can;t believe JoJo is singing again, good on her, she'll be doing stuff with chris brown, justin timberlake... yumm... justin... etc etc etc. anyway, i'm outties i'm off to brunch now with jeff belle and tammy woot woot fun times fun times... mwa mwa mwa lot's of love always DEaN!!! Current Mood: wat the...? (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 22nd, 2006
11:55 pm	wat a great day... i had such a fun day today. i went to jeff and nicholettes place in the morning we made crepes 2gether, then we went for a spa, then we watched KINKY BOOTS, then jeff drove me and nicholette to the city as he had work for 3 hours, so nicholette and i watched an amazing movie which i highly recommend u watch, MY SUPER EX-GIRLFRIEND (it was only that lil bit more great because of UMA THURMAN... FUCK I LOVE HER) lol. oh... but b4 the movie started nicholete and i went down to HMV at MARTIN PLACE and were seeing wat we do and don't like in movies and music, surprisingly we have HEAPS in common which i didnt really expect and then we had a really cool convo at HYDE PARK which was fun, so by the end of the movie we walked up to the SHANGRILA hotel to meet up with JEFF aftr he had finished his shift and then we went back to their place, as we walked in we all smelt gas, so nicho went to the stove and realised she had the gas on ALL day, it was so scary, i thought i was gona die lol, so we were too scared to cook anything so we ended up ordering gourmet pizza's which were really nice. ok... i'm gonna stop braggin about wat a great day i had now and head to bed as i'm having brunch with Tammy, Belinda and Jeff 2morrow, yay funtimes ahead... goodnight lovely peoples mwa mwa mwa Current Mood: yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 18th, 2006
5:50 pm	god im syked! ok so i spent my whole weekend like a fricking geek playing the role of a prostitute, drug user, aggressive drunk, and very lustful love triangle. all of this together is my seven deadly sins art project. it's oh so very exciting. i showed my art teacher and she absolutely loved my works. all i need to do now is write my analysis and haveit all prepared by 5 weeks. god.... suspense! my intention behind my 'in-ur-face' works is to make people realise that what i'm doing is not only what you seein the movies, but these things really do happen, it's a problem that i feel is very disturbing and hsould stop. i'm trying to make the peopl realise that this is what's causing so many problems in peoples lives and i would know based on personal experiences. i get sick looking at my works becoz it brings back the memories of my friend who had to deal with such things and who couldn't get out of it because of his fucked up childhood and family. i believe my intention is strong enough to get into ART EXPRESS and i really want it to get in, it's like a dream, i want it to get into art express so heaps more people of today's society can wake up and smell te coffee and realise these things are happening to all different people with problems. HELP them for christs sake! on other news by the way, JUSTIN TIMBERLAKES new song is totally awesome, it's called SEXY BACK. yumm.... anyway... i hope u guys r wishing me all the luck in the world to get into ART EXPRESS... it seems to be all that's on my mind at the moment. xOxOXo lot's of love always Dean MWAAAAAAAAA Current Mood: yeehawww lol (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 15th, 2006
11:45 pm	BREAK WAS AWESOME! omg ok the concert was fucken sick! they danced so good, it was very inspiring to leanr all different ways to dance, i'm so gonna practice more lol. omg one of the performers was abeat boxer and he came up to my brother and asked him to say a word so my brother said "word" lol it was funny, i got a shot of the beat boxer in my brothers face hehe goodtimes. thank god! i finally retreived my stolen BLACK EYED PEAS autographs. they're so kool, just looking at it brings back the great memories of meeting the lovely and very sexual Stacey Ferguson a.k.a. Fergie. and harassing Taboo lol just kidding. anyhow, i'm outties muh lovely peeps, take it ez i'm gonna get back to my dancin now woot woot GOODNIGHTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!! XoXOxoXOxo Current Mood: yayah
3:17 pm	yay yeah the picture worked. Current Mood: bouncy (Comment on this)
3:13 pm	BREAK! yay tonight im catchin up with my fave aunty and my lil cuzin and we r goign to see the dancing concert at Enmore Theatre, it's call BREAK! and it features dancers that have done things with the BLACK EYED PEAS, MADONNA, B2K etc. i'm really looking forward to it i'mm sure it'll be fun.oh fuck man! skool work, wat a stressful past few days, i've been trying so hard to get it all done, almost there, just need to right my last fucked uop english essay phew!. omg my artworks on the seven deadly sins are coming alon great, i've been taking some demo shots and things like that these holidays and 2morrow all day i'm finally gonna finish it off omg im so excited. I'm gonna try put one of my works on my display pic, it's me kissing me, and another one of me being envious of me and me lol, u'll understand wen u see the pic, ok i'm gonan stop typing now so i can put it on. take it ez guys mwa mwa Current Mood: oh man im so high right now (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 12th, 2006
2:43 pm	life... isn't it great? ok this week has been really odd. i've had to come to a realisation of at least three things. i've realised that i am a much better person than i ever thought i was, i have to convince myself that i'm not as ugly as i think i was, and most of all i have to be more independant. i feel this week is my first week in trying to achieve these goals. i am quite content in that district. all my life i have focused ALWAYS on what's best for everybody else. it's time that i pay a little more attention to wat i want and what is gonna make me happy. this will inclide socialising with people that make me happy, new people, and loving myself alot more than i have ever done. i've always been ashamed of what i do and how i behave, but really, if no-one wants to see that side of me, then i don't want to see them. i've just realised by the feedback i have received from jeff's friends that they all like me, they all think im really nice and friendly, if all these people can respect me like that, even though they're strangers, why can't my 'friends'? oh well lifes tough, "wat doesnt kill u makes u stronger" once said a good friend. and i believe this whole experience this week has definately made me stronger and i'm happy, i havnt been this happy since i was seeing jackson. i wish u all the best to come out of ur lives, have a great day lots of love always Dean xo Current Mood: ahhh (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 9th, 2006
8:38 pm	hey yo'll... hows everybody doing? oh my wat an eventful week, ive spent like 3 days packing and unpacking nicholette and jeff's things from their old places tro their new totally awesome apartment. i'm so pleased with the amount of work i put into it hehe, awww the two bois have left today, i barely got to know them as i only met them for the first time 3 weeks ago, they're really nice guys and they're gone forever now hehe, yes yes... it was emotional lol. oh man! the unemployed life is absolutely shocking, i hate it, i hate having to be a waiter at my dads, customers can be such bastards wen they wanna be. i can't believe i got the sack from PULP for saying i couldnt work one shift because i had an exam to study for, wat a load of shit. oh well... omg guys... 3 days b4 Fergie's first song LONDON BRIDGE is released WOOT WOOT!!! goodnight my lovely peeps lots of love... Dean xoxoxo (Comment on this)
Friday, July 7th, 2006
10:24 am	geez... am i the only person in the world that seems to keep feeling this way, i feel alone, isolated with not a soul around me for comfort. i feel betrayed, let down and i feel that i am being looked down on by miserable faces. i lost my best friend in 2004 because of some so called "friends" i had, they had troubled the life of my best friend. my best friend was insecure and fragile as he had alot of family issues, i really felt for him, i did all i could to make him feel better, and then one day, big accident i accidentally introduced him to my so called "friends", these friends didnt exactly offer to my best friend wat i did, instead they led him to things that most people would have never even considered doing before, taking drugs,prostitution, as time went on, he felt he was on top of the world, he had money, he had 'friends' and he was taking drugs, which he was really happy about, i tried to get him off the drugs to make him realise he's better than that, becoz he was, and my so called "friends" pursuaded his mind into doing it over and over and over again. i lost him, i couldnt keep in touch with him becoz he was never home, he dint have a mobile, and one day wen i called his house his mother told me he had packed his things and he was out of there. i havent seen him since. i'd do anything to get him back. for some odd reason, i feel that this story is being reproduced, with the same ex"friends" but with my new best friend. i feel sorely betrayed. all i've gotta do is keep my chin up, keep smiling, and play the role everyone wants, a happy, confident, kind and friendly character. in other words, the role i play when i'm at home. i guess u just never exactly know who u can trust. today im putting myself to the test to see if i can do things independantly, im going shopping by myslef, in the city, something i could have never seen myself do. jesus, i'm so over relying on backstabbers. as Madonna sings in JUMP "...i'll work and i'll fight till i find a place of my own... I CAN MAKE IT ALONE..." my god she's a role model, throughout her whole teen years she had no friends, and she did all she could in her power to follow her dreams and now she's the most successful female artist. anyway, i'm outties, time to go shopping woot woot. Current Mood: hopeful (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 2nd, 2006
10:36 am	I'm Fergie Ferg lemme luv u long time... hey peeps hey everybody, my god it's been a while since ive posted my last comment, my LJ wasn't working properly. ok so i have so much to talk about, first of all Fergie's single titled 'London Bridge' is fucken awesome, i can't wait for the video clip to come out, itll be HAWT hehe, another big announcment is dat i am a HUGE mother fuckin die hard fan of Paris Hilton, so can anybody please explain to me why i hate her song so much? omg ok so i went to the COLDPLAY concert on Monday night, it was so good, i got totally tripped out wen one second Chris Martin was on da stage and then the next he was at the back of the stadium in the crowd with the fans, that scared me lol or was i just plain old drunk? speaking of drunk, the woman i was talking to the whole night, 'Debbie' was so funny, i told her i was nineteen.... shhh.... and she told me she wants me to take foto's of her kids, i think that's nice, but i dont knwo her and quite frankly, im too scared to go to some strangers place wouldnt u be? and OH MY GOD i have never seen someone cry so hard through one of my favourite songs .... 'THE HARDEST PART' she honestly couldnt control herself, she leant on my sholder crying, so i gave her my scarf to wipe away those tears, and OH MY GOD by the end of the show wen Chris Martin was walking of the stage, she yelled over the railing "i love u guys, i have been a huge fan for ten years, ur music means the world to me" chris martin looked at her and said "cheers babe" and then he threw a SOCCEROOS scarf at her (which he retrieved from a fan in the mosh pit earlier during the show.) it was a spectacular show. YAYYYYYYYY holidays now, finally a fucken brake, omg my art works are coming along so well. i can't wait till i finish, i hope i get into ART EXPRESS. for those of u who don't know wat my works are about, it's based on the SEVEN DEADLY SINS and TODAY'S SOCIETY. i'm creating impacting self portraits, where i make out with my self, fuck myself, steal from myself, by drugs from myself, seek support from myself. it's just all very exciting. P.S. we have the cutest cat that comes to our house evryday, it is so adorbale, small, fat, and pure white with the same colour eyes as me hehe i can't wait to get back in my routine of photography over these holidays. anyhow, im outties my lovely peoples mwa mwa mwa hope u all have a good day... oh crap! i have a christening to go to today, and then my grnadads b'day tomorrow NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO i hate christening, i can't stop laughing fo sume weird reason wen the baby gets dunked in the water. i guess it's becoz it reminds me of the movie ALIENS. eww children, i always wanted to be a daddy, till i realised how much pressure u have to go under, wether ur raising the kids right, wat facts of life do u tell them? will they turn out as fucked as me? will i lead them to an insecure lifestyle? it's just far too complicated, everyone thinks it's so much easier than it really is. omg wat the fuck am i on about? im gonna go before i make myself sick, PEACE OUT MY LOVELY LADY LUMPS... I MEAN PEEPS XOXOXOX Current Mood: ditzy (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 3rd, 2006
6:11 pm	dear.... i have to free wats on my mind coz it's bothering me deeply... if the peron i am talkig about reads this i want u to know ur backstabbing bastard, dont ever talk to me if everything i have to say means shit to u. i cannot believe wat the fuck happened tonight, i am so sick of putting up with ur bullshit, sticking up for u against all my friends when u r at least 100 times worse than all of them. i considered u a part of the family i have outside of home, everytime i do sumthing with u i am always depressed, u bring me down, y do i waste my time at all with u. I loved u to bits becoz of who u r, i learnt to respect u and accept u but nuthing seems to change, u dont even consider me a friend. unless u confront me about this and talk to me i will NEVER forgive u for all the shit u have done to me throughout the whole time i've known u. so here i am on my fucken computer with nothing to do while this fucken party is on becoz of sum fuckbag lying piece of shit that let's me down EVERY SINGLE FUCKEN TIME. I'm so over this fucked up "relationship" or wat ever the fuck u want to call it. fuck u Current Mood: FUCK! (Comment on this)